Thoughts on the new year. 

For this year I am really evaluating the years gone by and wondering where did they go and why do I feel stuck? It’s a time of reflection and moving on and letting go for me. Letting go of old habits, letting go of what maybe I did not do right, letting go of bad decisions so I can move on. I have learned a lot of lessons and it’s time I started applying some of what I have learned by living on purpose. Why have I spend so much time procrastinating and letting time slip by or a better question is how can I not repeat this? What can I do better this year? What can I change and what can I control and what do I  just let go of? I can’t help but repeat in my head the serenity prayer. It rings so true in the repeating the words: “God grant me the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.” Well wisdom and courage are two things I will work on this year for sure.

I want to change the world and make it a better place but how can I do that if I can’t change and fix my self? If I can not quit bad habits or negative patterns then how can I fix all these external things? The truth is I can’t and I realize that I have spent a lot of time trying to do just this and to a degree is it’s insanity. I can sit here for hours and hours and go on about the woes of the world, but is it helping any thing or is it a big distraction from looking within?

I know that I don’t want mascara that will put chemicals in my eyes and to get to me by way of torturing Bunnies. I know I don’t want foods with chemicals in them that effect my thyroid and lack nutrients. I know I don’t want to have cancer. I don’t want to feel totally confused every time I am hungry on what morally is going on with our food, what is safe to eat and what’s not. I know I don’t want to go to the beach and see more plastic scattered about then sea shells. I don’t want birds and sea creatures to be poisoned by our human mess. I know I don’t want to support this craziness any more with the money I work hard for. But I also know I can be part of the solution and I have to learn how to better, stronger, and focussed to make a real change.

I hope this is the year that all these life lessons culminate and that I can be the best I can be and that in turn can rub off on others and if we all are our best and doing our part then maybe the world could start to heal.

Peace and love and happiness for 2012